Trapped

I’ve been feeling good lately. Started a new workout regimen and it’s been kicking my BUTT. It’s good though. I’ve lost weight thanks to Weight Watchers but lately I’ve hit a bit of a plateau and I have troublesome areas that need a lot of work. So I started ChaLEAN Extreme and holy crow, it certainly IS extreme. I like it because the workouts pretty much vary on a daily basis so it keeps it different and interesting.

Regardless of feeling so good, lately I’ve been feeling sorta trapped. Like I’ve got this giant glass jar over me and it only allows me to go so far. I’m really starting to want to break out of this giant glass jar I’m caught in but part of me is also very comfortable in the constrains of this jar and the security it offers me.

These last couple years I’ve definitely made some serious advances toward breaking out of this jar. I’ve forced myself out of my comfort zone and even had great success as a result of it, but occasionally I feel like those glass walls are closing back in. I feel like things are never going to change for me. I feel like my fears in life are just going to haunt me until they inevitably come true. I find I get discouraged when I work hard to step out of my comfort zone hoping more things will happen for me and they don’t. I guess I’m learning to accept that there are some things about myself that I just won’t be able to change. I’m sure there’s a reason for it. God wouldn’t have made me the person I am without a reason behind it.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

So I’m just going to keep breaking through these glass walls as much as I can and hope that eventually I will be free of them for good and find my purpose in this world.

Speaking of my fears, I’m conquering one of them this coming Monday. I’m going to the Doctor and getting some moles removed. One more thing I can check off my list of things I need to get done and also things that I’m insecure about that I will finally be rid of. Hopefully they won’t be malignant or anything, so say a little prayer for me!

2 Responses to Trapped

  1. Claudia says:

    I absolutely know what you are experiencing. I can tell you it does get better – but it frustratingly takes an immense amount of time. Like all things, right? One thing that really helped me was creating long-term goals for myself like 101 in 1001 and things like that. No, I didn’t get the things all crossed off by any means, but at least I had lots of things that I could sort of look forward to 🙂

    I hope your workouts feel less extreme over time! 😀

    • Angie says:

      I’ve really been thinking about starting one of those 101 in 1001 lists! I’m sure I wouldn’t even complete half of them but you’re right it’s something to work toward and I think it’s good to have goals/dreams even if they might seem unattainable, you never really know! 😀

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