Monthly Archives: August 2011

Fall is on the Horizon!

I don’t know what it is about Autumn, but it always brings out inspiration and creativity that has been hibernating for the Summer. Autumn is definitely my favorite time of year! Everything about it just fills me with hope for exciting things on the horizon! The beautiful colors of the changing leaves, the anxiety for the Holiday Season, and just the endless creative endeavors that come along with it.

I just got one of the Oriental Trading catalogs in and it’s full of Fall/Halloween/Holidays goodies! Not to mention Pinterest has seriously got me full of ideas of fun things to do this Fall! I can’t wait to carve pumpkins and decorate, make yummy cute Halloween themed treats! For some people Fall is the most dreaded time of year (I used to be one of those people). It means the end of Summer Break and time to go back to school. I don’t miss those days. I find being a working professional makes you appreciate Fall so much more!

I’m looking forward to going out and walking the Noland Trail this Fall, too. Made a plan to do that and walk a few other local trails with my Dad this Fall/Winter since he’s been trying to get healthier now after finding out he has Type 2 Diabetes. I plan to bring the camera along because it’s also my favorite time of year for taking photos! I can’t wait and I feel like the feeling Fall brings me is exactly what I need right now.

Here are some of my favorite Pinterest finds for this coming Fall!

What is your impression of Fall and is there anything you’re looking forward to?

Punches Keep Coming

It’s funny how God uses moments in our lives to help us grow in our lives and in our relationship with him. In fact, each of us are different and what might be a hard struggle for one, might hardly be an obstacle for another. This week, I think I found a bit of what my biggest struggle might be and ironically, it’s the struggle that my brother had to deal with his entire life and still managed to do so with a great attitude! These past couple weeks have been health obstacles for me. Not big obstacles, but enough for me to realize that if I ever have a big health crisis, I’m not sure how I’d be able to handle it.

First it was my lumbar back strain. My back is still not 100% better, but definitely getting there. When it finally felt like that obstacle was over with, I started waking up extremely dizzy and eventually that dizziness turned into vertigo and lasted pretty much all day. It was a sinus/inner ear thing and it made me SO unlike myself. I was grumpy, impatient and just miserable overall and thus having no problem making those around me miserable as well. Looking back it just makes me think of my brother and everything he went through in his life and how he still managed to be patient and have a great attitude. I should remember that the next time I have a debilitating health issue. The outlook might be bleak, but it could always be worse!

I’m feeling much better now and I’m so grateful for that. The punches keep coming for me lately but I’m just going to keep punching back!

Other than that, I’ve been feeling like I’m in a rut. I look around and everywhere I look are new beginnings. New relationships, engagements, marriages, pregnancies, and babies being born. Meanwhile, I’m here just watching them all stroll past. Lately I feel like maybe that’s just not in the cards for me. Sure, I have dreams of that for myself, but I feel like I’m an impossibility. Not that I’m incapable, just that it’s hard for anyone to connect with me. I desire close friendships and an eventual lifelong partner I can start a family with just like the next person but I find myself withdrawing and hiding myself away. When I do muster up some courage and come out, I end up talking myself into an awkward corner or back myself into one by NOT talking. I’d like to meet someone who would care enough to get to know me and not allow me to withdraw. Someone who will pull me out of my comfort zone that I keep crawling back into every time I get scared. I know there must be some reason I have this personality. I wish all the time that I was different and that I could be a social butterfly like all my friends, but I know there is a purpose for it. I just wonder what it is.

As I was typing this, Brandon Heath’s song Wait and See came on. I guess maybe God’s trying to tell me something! The chorus and bridge are my favorite:

There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet

Still wondering why I’m here
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh, He’s up to something
And the farther on I go
I’ve seen enough to know
That I’m not here for nothing
He’s up to something

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Waiting Game

On several occasions I’ve had people comment about how patient I am with people. I guess I am pretty patient when it comes to people who might not be easy to deal with. I just like giving people the benefit of the doubt. Unfortunately, I’m still not a very patient person. Maybe I’m patient where it counts most, but I wouldn’t consider myself as a patient person.

For instance, when I’m excited about something coming up, my patience fails. Same goes for when something scary is coming up. I get anxious to the point of turning into a total worry wart over it. The unknown scares me so when I know uncharted territory lies ahead, I get impatient and the worries set in.

Lately, I feel like my patience has really been being tested in several very different ways. I think God might be trying to teach me several lessons lately. So much has been going on that when I finally settle in to type a blog, it turns into a rambling novel. I’m seeing now that all of it combined makes for a much better story as a whole and with a reminder of many of life’s lessons. So here’s a brief summary of everything that has gone down lately.

A couple weeks ago I noticed one of my dogs was acting weird. By weird, I mean completely unlike herself. Usually she’s full of energy and seeking attention from anything that moves, but this day she was just laying down, not wanting to eat or do anything and she couldn’t seem to get comfortable. After spending a Saturday at the Emergency Vet and spending $700.00 (Ouch. There went my savings for getting the dog’s teeth cleaned.), we found out she had pancreatitis. Pretty scary. Thankfully she’s fine now. We managed to get her well opting for outpatient treatment and now I’m watching her diet more closely. Lesson learned here: Treasure what you have and be thankful for it, because nothing is promised forever.

The same weekend, I had the opportunity to help out a friend by finding a home for her dog. The home I found was with my Dad who was interested in possibly getting this particular breed of dog in the future. Long story short, it didn’t end up working out how everyone thought it would and it really upset me. The dog is the sweetest thing in the world and just needs love but I feel like my Dad gave up on it too quickly and the patient person in me just couldn’t come to terms with it. The dog is still in my Dad’s care but I’m unsure if that will remain the case. I hope so though, because he really is adorable and a really sweet dog! Lesson learned here: Even when everyone is impatient, remain patient. Sometimes people will surprise you.

Finally when things seemed to be looking up, I ended up throwing out my back by practically doing NOTHING. I literally bent down slightly to put a book on my shelf and my lower back lit up like a Christmas tree. It’s been a long week. I had so much trouble getting out of bed on Monday morning I was literally on the floor and I couldn’t move. Never felt that much pain in all of my life. Seriously thought I was going to have to go to the hospital it hurt so bad. I couldn’t even walk without being in excruciating pain. It’s much better now even though it still hurts to do certain things. I can’t wait to get back to normal. Lesson learned here: Never take your health for granted and count your blessings because there are people who aren’t as blessed as you.

I think the overall lesson learned lately has been to take nothing for granted. There might come a day (and there probably WILL come a day) when you lose things you have taken for granted. It’s funny how as soon as something goes wrong you think about how you took it for granted. I tell you what, I will never again take for granted a pain-free back and a healthy dog! Remember to be thankful for all the little things in life, because out there somewhere are people who don’t have them!

While on the subject of impatience. I’m also impatiently waiting for: Pottermore and The Sims Social.

What about you? What do you most take for granted and where does your patience fail?