Last week was a busy week but a good one! I made it my mission to change up my daily routine a little bit. I thought back to January when I was feeling so great and fulfilled and even HAPPY at work! After all, having a job at all right now is a blessing and it shouldn’t be taken for granted. Let’s face it, work is work and most of us are unhappy with our jobs. The lucky few get to do what they love without any of that pesky work stress! I hope someday I can be counted among them, but for now I should work like I have a purpose and work for God!
I think a major reason for feeling that way back in January was two BIG things:
For the most part, I actually pretty much stuck to doing both and I actually found some really amazing artists and bands that I’ve come to really enjoy as a result. Yet for some reason I’ve slowly stopped doing both. Last month I spent the entire month really frustrated with work. I’m a pretty chill person and I absolutely refuse to let stress get to me but because of that I don’t understand when people are stressed around me. I feel like life is so much more pleasant and productive if you just let that stress go and just keep rolling. After all, isn’t that part of having faith in God? That He will see you through every situation and He will provide for you. Why stress out over finances and work? Just take a breath and remember what’s important and appreciate that you have it! The world might end tomorrow and yet you wasted today worrying about something that won’t matter if the world does end, right? Just trust that God has control and he will guide you through the storm!
I think I remembered this at the perfect moment this week with September 11th and September 8th. While the world remembers that tragic day 10 years ago when those hijacked planes shook this entire country to the bone when they crashed into those towers, I also spent part of this past week remembering my brother. 5 years ago on September 8th my brother passed away after complications after a heart transplant. It’s unreal how much time has gone by.
10 years ago on September 11, 2001 I was sitting in my government class when the other government teacher ran in reporting a plane crashed into the World Trade Center. We spent the rest of that class and the duration of my Choir class that followed watching in horror as the second plane crashed into the second tower. As a class we huddled together in tears absolutely afraid of what was going to happen next and our hearts just in pain for the families in New York who were dealing with that firsthand and those who lost friends and family members. I can’t even imagine. So this weekend I spent time remembering and thinking about those people and praying that they are at peace.
5 years ago on September 8, 2006 I was fast asleep in bed when we got the late night/early morning call telling us to get to the Hospital after an emotional roller coaster of a week. Complication after complication and we all knew what this phone call meant. I cried and prayed to God all the way to the hospital just pleading with God to miraculously heal my brother. I had no idea how I was going to exist in the world without him in it. We got there and were told there was nothing else they could do for him and that we had to make that decision. I was in shock. It’s all still pretty much a blur but I remember the amount of love and support from my Church and Community Group after all that and it didn’t take me long to realize that not only were my prayers answered (He was made new and, thus, HEALED!), but that he lived a life so full it was overflowing and he touched the lives of so many. Today I still see the ripples he left in this world and I know for certain he’s up in Heaven with Jesus and our Father in Heaven. After all, he always said with absolute certainty and without fear: “It’s a win-win for me! Either I wake up with a new heart and more life to live or I get to be with my Lord and Savior!” He got what he wanted and I’m most happy that he no longer has to deal with endless doctors appointments, blood work or rejection issues. He’s in Heaven, he’s healed with the perfect heart that he never had and he’s having a blast!
So all in all, I’m glad I picked last week to get back on track where my daily routine was concerned. I think I definitely needed that extra spiritual boost this week. I’ll be doing the same this week!