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What is the cost for acquiring everything you ever wanted?

These days it seems we’re all striving for something. Striving for money to make ends meet, striving to climb the corporate ladder, striving for that dream job, striving to lose weight, striving to buy that luxury car, or striving to make our dreams come true. There’s always something and while it’s a good thing to have goals, I see so many people who get so driven and focused that they completely miss what’s right in front of them. They’re so busy chasing after the next thing they want that they don’t even see that they’re losing the blessings they already have. They climb to the summit of the mountain only to discover they dropped their bag of supplies halfway up.

I’ve been told that I just don’t understand the urgency, that I don’t care enough about the importance of making money and perhaps there is truth in that. But even when I was barely scraping by and not making enough money to even afford to live on my own, I have never felt this attachment to money. I’m not a frivolous spender but I do allow myself to buy nice things from time to time, but overall I’m responsible. I save my money and I’m not in any debt other than my monthly car payments. Money is just a thing to me. I’ve watched people close to me stress about the dollar. Stress about making ends meet. Talk about how much better life would be if they could win the lottery. What kind of life is that? I know money is important and I know the burden men carry when it comes to making enough to support their families and those are all good things. But I think the part a lot of people miss… is the balance.

What good is it to have all the money in the world if you have nobody to bless with it? What good is it to have all the money in the world and still have poor health? What good is it to have all the money in the world and be alone? What good is it to have all the money in the world and still be left wanting more?

I’m using money as the example here but really you can replace “money” with anything that we tend to chase after. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and it makes me really sad. I’ve been on the opposite end of this. I’ve been the child wanting to stay up late so I can say goodnight to Daddy who has stayed late at work. I’ve been the child who wanted nothing more than to have my parents come see me perform in a talent show. I’ve seen people close to me waste their life away trying to make a living and then are broken and full of regrets as a result. I’ve seen people want want want want and then when they finally have what they thought they wanted, they realize that in striving for that very thing, they lost what was really important and they’re still not happy.

I don’t write this post to change your minds or make you feel guilty if you live your life this way. I write this as a reminder… while planning for your future, don’t forget about your present. I write this as a reminder that no matter how far you climb, you’ll always want to climb higher. No matter what you acquire, there will always be a void. We all feel a void that nothing on this earth can satisfy. For me being a Christ follower really helps. Praying, reading His word and singing his praises, it gives me a certain peace. It makes me feel like everything will work out. Some people don’t understand this perpetual positive thinking. When the world is falling apart around me, I still have peace and hope and I know that beyond this world and beyond this life there is a life where those voids will be forever filled and we will no longer have to chase after companionship, love, money, success and life’s luxuries. We will have everything we need and be completely content!

    You Are An Original: Self Love & Belief

    I’m having one of those weeks where I feel like if I could just take a little bit of time, sit down and write, I’d feel so much better. Problem is, when I sit down to write, I just can’t seem to translate my thoughts down to text. This week has been a challenging one, in that I’ve been a little more clear-headed and able to see things from a bit of a fresh perspective but at the same time, I feel my stubborn side trying to fight against it. Sometimes being a Gemini can be a pain. Feeling very very split on some things lately and I know at some point I’m going to have to make a decision and commit to whatever it is I decide. Can I just go back to being a carefree kiddo? I think I wish that once a week AT LEAST.

    So among the battles of this week, I’m in this process of learning to stop avoiding confrontation. I know it SUCKS to put your foot down, stand up for yourself and demand answers regardless of what reaction you get but at some point it has to be done. I’m the type of person that will quickly end any conflict by just nodding in agreement to move on as quick as possible. I’m usually the first to apologize and take the blame (even when neither action is necessary).

    Royal Tailor // Original

    I’ve come a long way and a lot of that is because of the confidence I’ve gained from losing weight. I guess, in essence, I place more value on myself now. However, more often than I care to admit, I still struggle. I struggle with self-confidence, self-esteem and self-belief. I’m sure a lot of it boils down to fears (usually silly, irrational fears) but also I have that annoying desire that we all seem to have deep down.. and that is: to be accepted.

    Why do we place value on ourselves based on what the people in our lives think about us? Even those closest to us that we love the most are going to let us down from time to time. And those same people, are probably the ones most likely to hurt us, too. Maybe it’s just a simple offhand comment they make without thinking and somehow that one comment plants this giant seed of negativity in our hearts that is constantly feeding us NEGATIVE lies! ‘You’re fat.’ ‘You’re stupid.’ ‘You’re ugly.’ ‘You’re weak.’ ‘You’ll never succeed.’ ‘You’re incapable.’ ‘You’re not enough.’ etc. WHY?! Why do we torture ourselves with these thoughts? Why do we believe them? Why do we let others make us feel this way? I hate it!!

    I guess we can choose to remove those kind of people from our lives, but sometimes that’s just not possible and sometimes it doesn’t even have to come from another person. It’s all around us. It’s on TV, on the newsstands, on the internet. It’s everywhere. So in a world full of negativity what can we even do to fight it?

    It’s a non-stop battle but for starters we can place our value on what God thinks about us. I always have to remind myself of this and anytime a negative thought pops up, I try to immediately SLAY that thought by turning it into a thought that God would think instead. I saw this posted on Facebook this week and it was absolutely what I needed in that moment:

    Beyond that, I’ve also been listening to Royal Tailor‘s new album almost non-stop lately and I feel like my personal anthem of the moment is the song “Original.” Check it out!

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    I’m original, so original,
    I’m original, the original

    Tell me, why I feel like I must keep up
    Reaching for what I just can’t touch
    No I never can get enough
    Tell me, why I’m hustlin’ everyday
    Spending time like its currency
    Paying bills but I can’t buy change
    Pressure all around me
    Is this who I’m supposed to be
    Sick and tired of fittin’ the mold
    Dysfunction is the cycle
    That’s makin me a psycho
    And I don’t have to take it no more

    So overrated, too fabricated for me
    So close to jaded
    but I still choose to believe
    I’ve been created for something greater
    I’m a fighter, igniter, yeah I’m the original

    Tell me, why we’re struggling everyday
    Try to hide behind things we say
    While we lose our identity
    Tell me, if we choose to be who we are
    Don’t pretend to be what we’re not
    Show the world what’s inside your heart
    Pressure all around me
    Is this who I’m supposed to be
    Sick and tired of fittin’ the mold
    Dysfunction is the cycle
    That’s makin me a psycho
    And I don’t have to take it no more

    It’s amazing the kind of motivation, inspiration and strength you discover when someone underestimates you and your abilities and you instead realize that you are capable, strong and beautiful in GOD’S eyes and that nothing else really matters!

    Also a side note, site related: I was nominated for the Sunshine Award by a couple friends! I’ve been working on that post for over a week now and it should be up soon as well as an October Recap! Keep an eye out for those soon!

    I Already Have What I Need

    I don’t know if it’s true for everyone, but when I look back on the last 9 years of my life and think about the change, it seems almost astronomical. Even just in the last year, the changes are so profound. I’m not just talking about physical, which is definitely the most noticeable, but there have been changes all around. I’ve been faced with difficult decisions, faced some big fears and experienced more than I even imagined possible. Most importantly and above all I learned to trust God more though all of that. When I look back I can see how even the smallest of choices and little changes started a process much like a domino effect.

    God Will Provide

    God’s timing is so perfect! For a long time I looked back and regretted certain choices I made. I envied the people around me who seemingly had their lives, hopes and dreams completely figured out. Only now am I able to look back and see that God was leading me through a process that was shaping me into the person I am supposed to be. He was slowly but surely planting new dreams in my heart and giving me everything I needed little by little.

    This morning I was reading one of the daily devotions I get in my email and it was talking about how God gives us what we need and if at any point we need more, He will give it to us. When I read that and looked back on the last few years of my life, I felt like I could see just where God was pouring a little more into my life just when I needed it. At the time I didn’t even realize it, but looking back I can clearly see how each time He was placing an integral piece to the puzzle of my life.

    When He planted the seed in me to change my lifestyle, that was what started it all and of course that seed was planted long before I even knew it. It started a process of learning to trust Him and to love the life He gave me and teaching me to have the discipline to take better care of it. It started a process of personal growth of learning more about myself and revealed hidden passions and hidden dreams that I never knew were there. Today, as I once again struggle with the looming possibility of having to make another hard decision, I try to remember that this is just another step of the process and another piece of the puzzle. No matter what decision I make, I know that I can trust that God will be using it to further shape my life.

    Even now, as I proofread this post, I noticed something I did that was completely unintentional! Look how many times I used the word “process” which I have now gone back and edited in as links. Maybe it’s just because it’s still fresh in my mind and my subconscious is trying to drive the “point” home, but I find it interesting how in church on Sunday we heard about how the process is the POINT and now here I am talking about the process God has been guiding me through over the last few years. Just some food for thought! I think if you take some time and look back on your own lives you will also see how things have fallen into place or even OUT of place only to eventually let other things fall into place.